Today I watched a mother waiting patiently for the special needs bus to stop and allow her child to step off. When this adorable little boy got off of the bus you would have thought he was meeting Santa, his favorite super hero, and Jesus all at the same time. That sweet little angel jumped up with sheer joy at the sight of his mother. Big smiles and hands up in the air ready for a big mama bear hug.

I watched as his mother wiped away a tear from her eye after swinging that little boy around a few times in that perfect hug that only the best moms and dads know how to do. You know what I’m talking about!

That magical little moment, lasting no more than a few seconds, restored my faith in life and humanity a tiny bit today. God bless that sweet little family.

Do you ever find yourself comparing your crap life story to someone else?  Sometimes when working with patients or just talking with people in general, the little voice in my head is so shameful and ignorant. I have literally thought to myself, “ha, if only they had experienced the x-y-z that I had! They don’t know ANYTHING!” or worse yet, “that doesn’t even sound that bad, you’re overreacting”. 
Y’all.  This way of thinking by others used to break me to the core when I was a teenager and in such a broken place.  I will never forget the “Wounds” series we did at sublime where it was explained so perfectly and simply.

You are the bearer of the wound.  You define it.  No one else can feel your wound for you. 

My emotionally demanding profession has somehow desensitized me to this truth for a few months now.  Thankful for the break to rearrange my head. 

Comparison is the thief of joy, y’all. 

I just submitted by last school assignment. EVER. Time to celebrate!

SIKE. Time to get a job.

struggles.

People keep asking me for advice for future interns and students.  They expect some sort of deep wisdom from me.  Naturally, I make a mockery of everything.

Ha, I’m about to have a masters degree. Ridic.

So many things are changing in my life and within my family! I’m now in this weird place where I want to hold on to my adolescent ignorance while still diving in to adulthood and yearning for change.

Love. Marriage. Graduation. Jobs. Bills. Movement. Family. Kitten.

This is my life right now and it’s blowing my mind. But I dig it.